Last week, I got some news that sent me into a brief tail spin for about 36 hours (work related, not health related). I had a vision of how I thought our family's lives were going to be for the next five years and suddenly with this new information, I felt like I had to completely readjust....immediately.
See that's the thing with me. I HATE uncertainty. I can deal with bad news, but I cannot deal with uncertainty. Uncertainty makes me instantly plot out worst case scenarios. I'm trying to find the emergency exit. I'm really in a state of constant stress when uncertainty creeps in. Why is that?
For me, I think it's because I am 100% goal oriented. It's very hard for me to live in the here and now. When you throw in uncertainty, I don't know how to achieve the goal...and whew, I go nuts.
This quality helps me achieve, but it doesn't necessarily make me the best parent, spouse or friend. So I have to find my own chill pill (a legal one). Not exactly sure what it is just yet - but I saw a quote this week that was a perfect reminder for me -- "Now and then it's good to pause in the pursuit of happiness and just be happy."
You should know that during the tail spin, I received some additional information which actually indicated things were better than before the tail spin! If I had just remained calm until I had all of the information, I could have saved myself and my husband some unneeded stress.
Any suggestions for good chill pills?
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